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August 27, 2015

Empty Nest

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Empty nest

This is what my house feels like today. Yesterday, I dropped my younger daughter, Sarah, off at her new school year home at Wentworth Institute of Technology in Boston. Older daughter, Meghan, returned to her school on Sunday. I know I’m not “officially” an empty-nester, since my girls still technically live at home, but this is how it feels. Another piece of my heart is now beginning her adventure in the exciting capitol city of this state.

The dorm room

Fun, quirky, introverted, intelligent, caring, sweetheart Sarah in her dorm room.

With Wentworth leopard

A new chapter of my life begins. It’s a chapter I’ve never been ready for but knew was inevitable. How will I adjust and fill the pages of this chapter? My girls have been my focus for the last 20 years of my life, and while they will continue to be my first priority forever, my daily role as “mom” is now no longer. It is such a huge part of my identity – where do I go from here?

December 31, 2013

What a year it has been!

Filed under: Joy — Karma @ 8:51 pm
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Here it is, New Year’s Eve. Only a few hours of 2013 remain. I’ve been thinking about and wanting to write an end of the year blog post. In the past I’ve shared my favorite photos of the year, but this year feels different to me. It was one of changes, big and small. I’m not sure why I’m having such a very hard time getting this post started. Maybe I can start with this:
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This is a book my father gave me for Christmas. He said he bought it because it was a photography book and because of the subject matter, and I truly appreciated the thought behind it. The photos in this book are beautiful and amazing. But the message behind it turned out to be a lot more. Do you see the subtitle of the book? “A Celebration of Joy in the Everyday”. At the beginning of each chapter the photographer/author tells a personal story that relates to the theme of the chapter. The first chapter is called “Dreaming”; a few lines that struck notes with me:
If you dream about something long enough, the universe just might conspire to give it to you.”
“Seeing his remarkable photographs sparked an even deeper passion, this time for photography”
“And so I learned another lesson: It’s never too late to dream.”

What if I could be present enough to find the joy in the every day? Celebrate the changes rather than worry about them. Wouldn’t that be the best change of all?
I think it is a lofty goal, and maybe not completely obtainable in a particular time period, but I can certainly try to work toward that goal.

Here are some changes, big and small, that I was able to celebrate in 2013.

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The solving of a mystery: Jimmy and Judy’s true identities were revealed

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My older daughter became an adult

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On my birthday, I celebrated pink flowers and a blue sky and a change to beautiful spring weather

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The change from a pile of sticks to a nest to eggs to baby birds and new life

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The pride in my younger daughter’s award

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Graduation

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The peace, the perspective, my place of zen: the change I feel in my soul when my body finds this place

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Difficult to accept, but the true happiness Meghan has found in her new life at school

Dream come true!
Ahhhhhh……no explanation needed

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A shiny new floor

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A weekend of appreciation of family

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Starting to feel fit and continuing the commitment

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My daughter maturing and changing, and maybe, just maybe, starting to understand where mom is coming from

2013 Champs ornaments
A victory for my favorite team

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That feeling that all is right, if only for a little while.

August 24, 2013

Sunrise

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Sunrise on Hills Beach
I took this photo bleary-eyed through the window of the porch of our cottage one early morning in Maine last week. The sun woke me that morning and teased me to go outside with the camera, but my body wasn’t listening. I grabbed the camera, took this less-than-perfect picture, and put my head back on the pillow for another hour.

I’ve been doing a lot of introspective thinking lately and this shot seems to tell a bit about where I am at these days. I realize the sun is rising on a new chapter in my life.

On Thursday, we moved Meghan in to her new school-year home, Clark University in Worcester, Ma.
Meghan's dorm
I don’t know how I will handle not seeing her smiling face and hearing her stories about what is going on in her life every day. I told you I left a piece of my heart in Maine in an earlier post this week, now another piece of it is in Worcester.

Sarah is of course still at home with us for another two years, so I am not an empty-nester, but I’ve been giving a lot of thought as of late to who I am aside from my role as mom. Who am I when I’m not playing mom on a daily basis?

I feel like I need a path to discovery, and I don’t even know where to begin searching for that path. I know many of you reading this have been down this road yourself, and if you have any thoughts or suggestions about a place to begin this journey, I would be happy to hear them.

June 24, 2011

I can’t think of a title for this blog post

Remember the 124 pictures I told you I took at dress rehearsal last week?  I finally got around to editing yesterday.  I cropped and brightened and un-red-eyed 23 of my favorites and posted them in an album on Facebook.  Are we friends on Facebook?  If we are, you can see those pictures here if you’d like.  If we are not, maybe we should be!

With recital, also comes flowers, and we received many lovely ones.  On one of the few afternoons that wasn’t rainy this week, I took the flowers outside on my deck and placed them on the table for a little photo session.  I found that late afternoon with my umbrella in place made for lovely picture-taking lighting for these very willing and cooperative subjects.  First I played with my extension tubes.  I was too lazy to get the tripod out, so I sat and used my elbows on the table to gain some steadiness:

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Next I decided to try the 50mm 1.8.  It turned out to be a nice choice for showing off pretty color with that sharp-but-soft-at-the-same-time focus:

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I hope that your summer is off to a wonderful start.  Today is the first day that neither the girls nor I have to go to school.  So far it hasn’t been the lazy non-schedule that I usually look forward to at this time of year.  Yesterday was the girls’ last day, but it was Sarah’s “Final Assembly” at middle school – or 8th grade graduation as we used to call it when I was a kid.  Sarah received two certificates for academic achievement – the President’s Education Award for being in the top 10% of her class and an excellence award for achieving all A’s for her final grades of 8th grade.

Forgive me for bragging a wee bit!  I’m very proud of my little girl – who isn’t so little any more!

After Sarah’s ceremony, we all went out to lunch in celebration.  Yesterday afternoon and today too, I will continue to wear my invisible “Mom’s Taxi” cap, which I’m sure will remain in place for the summer. 

 In between, I’m hoping to have plenty of reading time out on my deck.  I’m looking for reading suggestions for the summer too!  Please leave any suggestions you may have in the comments.  The next book I am planning to read is book 3 in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series.  Have you read those?  That is my suggestion to you if you haven’t.

I’ll be back with other rambling blog posts soon.  Don’t forget about the photo hunt!

October 5, 2010

Little Reminders – Picture Fall, day 5

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I hope you don’t take my picture for today the wrong way! I’m not bragging. Our instructor today wanted us to photograph a word as a little reminder of something we need to hear, or something we would like affirmed.

Picture Fall, day 5

My mother gave me this charm years ago – for my first Mother’s Day, I think.  Today, as the mother of two teenaged girls, I question all my decisions.  Am I doing the right thing?  Will they appreciate what I do for them – if not now, someday?  Have I done the best that I can to raise people who will make good decisions and do right by themselves and those around them?  I’m sure I’m not the best mommy ever, but I hope that some day my girls will know that I’ve always tried my best to be the best mother I can be to them.

Of possible photographic interest:  I took this photo of my 3/4″ long charm with my 55-250mm lens and Raynox macro-converter attached.  I liked the vignetting that was created by the lens and use of flash – photographers, please correct my terminology or explanation here if I’m not saying this correctly!