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November 27, 2015

A Sad Goodbye

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My sweet 10-year-old golden retriever Daphne passed away in her sleep early this morning.

I knew that my time with her would be limited but I never expected her to slip away as quickly as she did. She had started slowing down this year, and getting that “old dog” face as her fur began to turn white. Just last week, it appeared she was having difficulty walking, losing control of her back legs, especially on the tile floor in the kitchen. Goldens are known for having issues with their hips, I thought perhaps time was finally catching up with hers. I noticed a couple times that her breathing seemed a bit heavy but thought maybe a little doggy cold was creeping in. She still had her pleasant doggy-soulful personality and did not appear to be in any obvious pain. My husband took her to the vet on Tuesday to have her checked out. He came home with awful news. She had cancer. A massive tumor was impinging on her spine, causing those rear legs to collapse. When they did x-rays to confirm, cancer was also found throughout her lungs. She was not getting the oxygen her body needed to sustain her. She gave us a prescription of prednisone to ease her pain, and we took her home, uncertain of how much time she had left.

The girls came home for Thanksgiving break on Wednesday and knew something was wrong with our sweet girl right away. We had hoped we might be able to keep the bad news from them until they were finished with final exams at college, but it was becoming clear Daphne might not have that kind of time left. We comforted her as best we could, hand feeding her some meats and wet dog food, hugs and pets and a comfy pillow to lounge on.

This picture had been on my mind a lot in recent days:
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That’s from our very first Christmas with Daphne in 2005. Before we left the house for Thanksgiving dinner yesterday, I took this photo of Daphne and my girls:
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And I’m glad I did. Early this morning, Teddy touched me several times with his nose. I could hear Daphne’s labored breathing in the hallway. Teddy kept touching me until I got up to check on Daphne. I did my best to comfort her one last time, but I knew the dog I loved was fading fast. She died in her sleep a couple hours later. Teddy gave me one last chance to say goodbye to her.

We buried her in the backyard as a family. The girls came outside and Teddy laid quietly near by as we did what had to be done. It was terribly sad, but it felt like the right and respectful goodbye.

It is amazing what dogs seem to know and understand. Daphne stayed with us long enough for the girls to come home and have their last moments with her. She made it through Thanksgiving day, and I was so very thankful for the 10 years she gave this family. We hand fed her some bites of turkey and patted her sweet head before we went to bed last night. Then this chapter of our lives met its end this morning, free from the burden of having to make that decision ourselves to end her suffering.

Goodbye my sweet fur baby.
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Daphne, September 17, 2005 to November 27, 2015 RIP

November 21, 2015

What I’ve been up to

For all the free time I’ve found on my hands since this school year began, I haven’t found myself in the blogosphere as much as I thought I would. I’ve been keeping myself busy in the days since I last updated (and I’ve been enjoying your blogs as well). Here’s a bit of how I’ve been passing the days.

In the middle of October, Sarah and I spent a great day together in Boston. Technically, it was “Family Weekend” at Wentworth but Sarah and I weren’t particularly interested in the events on campus, especially with a great city like Boston at your feet. My baby girl is becoming an expert at using Boston’s public transportation system, known locally as the “T” and she navigated us where we wanted to go. We visited Fanueil Hall and Quincy Market and the Prudential Center. Back on campus we did stop and “Build a Leopard” – kind of like “Build a Bear” only she made WIT’s mascot.
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We enjoyed dinner together at the Cheesecake Factory – a first visit for both of us.
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Halloween felt very different this year without either of my girls at home. My enthusiam for it has waned over the years, and now with no dance studio Halloween parties to attend or the kids trying to decide what they’ll be, it passed differently for me this year. I didn’t buy a pumpkin for jack-o-lanterns or candy to pass out for trick or treat (we’ve gotten fewer and fewer trick or treaters in this neighborhood in recent years anyway). I did dress up for school – the reactions of middle schoolers seeing their teachers dressed up is worth it. I picked through dance costumes and such and decided to go as a “Goth ballerina”:
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That weekend of the 31st and Nov. 1st, my sister and I had a great weekend in Providence Rhode Island. We spent Saturday at a foodie museum on the Johnson and Wales campus, and then went shopping at Providence Place. Federal Hill in Providence is famous for being like Boston’s North End when it comes to restaurants, especially authentic Italian, so we treated ourselves to a great meal at a place called Pane E Vino
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Delish dinner

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The next day we attended Meghan’s ballroom competition in Cranston and had a lot of fun!
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As I think I’ve explained before, there aren’t enough guys to go around on the ballroom team, so Meghan sometimes dances lead as you see in the above photos. She also gets her chance to follow in some styles of dance:
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We even got to take our dancer to lunch.
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It was a cool little place called the Elephant Room – a combination tea room and creperie.

November hasn’t been quite as exciting so far. I’ve spent a lot of time with my dreaded sycamore leaves, which I believe I have bitched about every year since I began this blog. Hmmm let me check. Ok looks like I started bitching in 2011, the second year of my blog, lol, and I was really crabby about them 2 years ago. This year I tried to be smart about them and take advantage of raking them up before any kind of precipitation bogged them down. Here’s a fraction of what I cleaned up.
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A milestone passed recently as well. Do you remember this blog post from two years ago? In it I announced the beginning of what I am now calling my fitness journey. It’s a journey without final destination as far as I’m concerned. I’m continuing to see where it will take me. I’ve moved on from the things that I showed you in that post to weight lifting and yoga as my main forms of working out, and while I’m not following any sort of strict diet routine, I mostly “eat clean”. I’m happily and easily maintaining the weight I lost, I’m building new lean muscle and I’ve dropped from a size 8 to a size 2. I love shopping for new clothes! Here’s a pic of how I look today:
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I’m not very good at posing for pictures, but this is good enough!

I am so much looking forward to next week! A nice short work week, my girls coming home Wednesday afternoon and Thanksgiving dinner with my family on Thursday. It’s all good!